I was in the heart of downown Toronto, in my swanky ( to my then standards) apartment, moments way from the ever famous Eaton Centre (where my future office was), a chineese resturant (actually 4 surround the blocks) a cosy starbucks open till 11pm and in a basking view of the city lit up and the CN Tower glowing away and two pretty cool ladies who shared the place with me.

Fast forward to this time present day,
Im in Edinburgh, away from any sort of city lights, nothings open, in my old bedroom, watching shitty tv, on msn, feeling lost because this is the life i was craving to get away from when i was at uni.

I dont  think im fully reay to go back to Toronto just yet, It was fate my application didnt work out while i was there , hence coming back to figure out what i really wanted. I think i want to go back but i need this time to find something to do. Yet another day of job searches. A woman from  an agency called me up enquiring about my CV she found online and wanted to know what i was looking for.  Got a reply from one of the temp jobs i applied for saying they have already filled the vacancy. Great, another round of endless cover letters shall be sent out tmrw.

The whole job hunt agian is just depressing. Somehow being in Canada last year and going through the same thing didnt feel as bad as now. Axtually it sorta did because i had to pay for rent etc but i think i was more optimistic than i am right now.

I'm just craving my life, my job and my downtown T.O apartment back!! (minus the psycho roomates!)