..Instead of being excited about going i feel miserable and feel like crying.
Mainly because my parents make small things sound so trivial like how will i ever manage to carry 2 suitcases
and basically the general attitude of thinking im incapable of doing anything when im in Canada.
Telling other family that they don't really want me to go and then contradicting saying it will be a good experience yet i don't see any support on that matter. NOT once has my dad read through the papers iv given him to look at, ok so he sent me several links on jobs (Because thats what matters in the end, if i dont get a job straight after uni im a failure, messing around, wasting time) then speaks to me like i haven't done my research and making it out that it's going to be soo bad. Then my mums a whole different story with the tears and negative talk about how i might die or get raped there. WHAT?? WHY EVEN THINK OF THAT??
...i guess parents are parents and they care but right about now all i see is both of them being so un- supportive. They know iv booked the flights and it's official yet the constant negativity and making small issues into a dramatic issue is really a downer.
Every time i want to be excited i don't because everything they say just ruins it. Like it's on purpose. Heard dad on the phone saying to a relative that he didnt want me to go and is guilty of not being so enthusiastic yet i still get the big lectures and comments like what im doing is stupid.
No doubts tmrw morning on the way to work i'll be getting another pessimistic have u done this have u thought of this, xyz, yes dad i have, if u dont belive me it's not my fault. All that just before i go to work..then i have to be HAPPY and deal with moaning customers!!
I'm going to hide in my bed now! Goodnight! 
