Pfttt ...I just don't understand men! Well M ...
I logged onto MSN and he said hi straight away! (SHOCK!!) ..convo went along the lines of...

 
M: hey
Me: hiya, hows it goin
M: good
did u go out wid U
Me: no
i never actually agreed to meet him!
M:lol
ok
Me:he not really my type! lol
M: who is
lol
?
Me: winks:
not him! lol
 

waits for like 10mins then i roll my eyes, the convo comences with him saying 'lol' and ranting bout how he accidently offended a girl he knwos by calling her a whore! Swear he jus digs himself a grave ...entirely his fault!!

so then he starts saying this..

 M:  between u n me
if u dnt mind me askin
a feel a lil embarassed

(waits for 2 mins, by this time im gettin extremley paranoid)

Me: about?
M:rememba when we had sex
(shows embarassed face)
 
Me: yeah (im thinking to myself WHAT THE HELL, bloody mockery!!)
M:was a ok?
be honest

Me: why u askin me this?
M:errrr
here in canada
a had a one nite stand wid somone
a was so drunk
n she is spreadin silli rumours abt me
n dat has driven me to low self esteem


OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE HE JUST TOLD ME THAT!! I SOO DID NOT WANT TO KNOW THAT!!
so basically i was like ok why n he said that they fell out and she was spreading rumours. etc etc

then this part confuses me:

 M:jus be honest
a was too drunk to even memba
dats why a feel so crap
thank u for bein honest
thts why a think the world of u

now the last line, kinda seem patronising..but whatever..
then he apologied for asking me and it ws an awkward thing to ask me and i replied with im frankly suprised ur even telling me all this. Then the converstation jus went off into random dimensions and he still tlaking to me right now, 2hrs later, surprising. With his minor insecure moments.. how can a confident person be so bloody insecure?? i tld him that and he sed his ego ws bruised..

well sorry M but i aint guna be ur ego boost...everytime he feels like shit he'll just come to me for comfort, i told him i was goin away for the weekend to my friends wedding and he told me not to get up to any 'hanky panky'

...IRONIC REALLY, I CAN SHAG WHO I WANT! NOT that it's my style... he sed im allowed 'one mistake' and rolled his eyes.. i kinda laughed it off..totally weird...

So i kinda knw why he being wierd with me lately , kinda shocked he told me bout his one night stand...i dont even want to think bout him and someone else , urgh...all i know is, im not guna let him use me whenever he needs an ego boost.

As for everythign else...we still made a promise we'd b e friends no matter what so im guna maintane that...jus find it a lil weird wen he tells me certain things i'd rather  not know..
so all in all right now MY LIFE SUCKS!!