Remember the first 'Just Friends or More' post, here is part two..
I'm sitting at that friends flat, call him CG in his room , on his bed. He is sleeping in the spare bedroom, he went to bed just before 10pm because he has work tmrw and for some reason i am totally annoyed. Besides being extremely bored, i come to see him and ok fair enough he has to work but i don't know, things have gone totally wild this past week. I'm starting with this story.
Back to the post where he asked me if i had ever been attracted to him, i said no becuase that is what i thought, well i said i didnt know but i knew i didn't think he was until i saw him in person for the first time in 4 years. Can you believe it. Despite me saying nothing would happen it did, I was adamant it wouldn't but i don't know how or when or why it really happened.
Tuesday, (Yesterday)he took me for dinner in 'Felicini' in Leeds and then to TigerTiger for drinks. The night was good, fast forward past 3 tequilla shots each, 4 ameretto's and coke and JD and coke(his drink) 2 sex and the beach cocktals later we moved to a differnt part of the bar to the part where people were dancing. Initially we were messing around, he was poking me and i was trying to tickle him, he was trying to stop me and holding my wrists down. It was quite funny and playful. So we danced alot, he got closer and i let him, he had his arms around my waist and i thought ok fine, (being tipsy too)then after some time, when we were dancing he kissed my neck (my weakness) and i let him. We were dancing and i didn't think anythng of it,I knew if i turned around or maintained a long eye contact i may regret it so contintued to dance.
We moved to sit on the sofas in TigerTiger to rest, he has his arm around me and i was resting my head on his arms, then he begins to poke and tickle me so naturally i was trying to poke and tickle him back and i don't know how but he was tickling me so much (and he is very strong) that i ended up laying on his legs, (half laying) and he had my arms locked tight and i was trying to break free, (in a playful way, we were laughing alot) and i don't know how or when but the next thing i know was that he was kissing me. I felt his lips strongly kiss mine, eager like the kiss was inevitable. Strong, hard and even made my lips swollen. We kissed for some time and i don't know what's more weird the kiss or me or us not feeling weird about it. We decided to go back home.
Back at the flat..
Had to wake his flatmate up because he lost his keys. My lips were swollen from his hard kiss. Not sure i like it that rough and painful but all i knew was i wanted more. Strangly. Said hi to his friend and went in his room. We began to kiss and he threw me on his bed and pinned me down and kissed me more. The next thing i was totally topless and he was pulling my trousers down. I stopped him and said that maybe we should think about what we were doing incase he regretted it in the morning. He is the type of person who i never imagined woulod do something like that. I myself am not like that and i am naughty, i go by the fact that do what pleases you and if you feel its right who cares what everyone else thinks..
anyways. He said he woulnd't regret it and i resisted for ages. I wanted to take things further, it wasn't just being tipsy but i really wanted to. He said to me 'doesn't this feel right to you'. One thing lead to another...
The whole experince was a bit crap! Eventually after trying a bit we got tired. Wasn't the greatest sex i have had. Worst i think but the next day (today) i still wanted more.
Today we went to the cinema and lunch and shopping and came home and were messing around, he told me he liked to dominate and had me pinned to the bed, i liked it. Why did i like it? I still don't know. He kissed me when we got back and i had been dying for that all day. Fooling around, laying around, was fun. I thought we would do it again, and maybe this time it would be a little bit better but in the end, after dinner, before dinner we were fooling around but after dinner, just before 10pm he told me he wanted to go to bed. I was very annoyed.
1.I have come here to see him
2. Ok i know he has work the next day but atleast stay up till 11pm
3. I think i'm also annoyed because he made me damn horny all afternoon and didn't finish it off!!
4.I am surprised at how shallow i am becomming that all i want right now is sex. Not really like me.
5. I feel damn sore below as he was quite rough so i should be thankful for not gettng another round but damn it...
I WANT HIM!!!!d and i am here, on his laptop witting about him and being annoyed at myself for even thinking like this and shocked that i don't find any of this wrong. I jus wish it was a bit of a better expeience. I have no idea what he thinks. Maybe he changed his mind bout sex again but i am generally a little confused now. I really don't know what has gotten into me since iv been away. I pulled another friend in London i met for a drink and dinner. (For a different post)
Back to CG leeds.. he leaves for work at 7am. I set my alarm to 6.30am. He said he would wake me when he goes. I have no idea when i'll see him again. Im going to Canada in a few weeks for a year. I'm not sure what's going to happen now. Im not sure i want anything to happen either. All i know is i don't regret it but i am surprised it happened. Because i NEVER imagined we (he) would be like this!
Made a list of what i have packed in suitcase 1. It's a start!
with a stick out tougue and she emailed me and said it was rude of me to start an email like that! Excuse me!! I told her it was a joke hense the emotion but never mind..she was telling me that she was busy at work and that is about as far as her e-mail got. Asked how i was and if i was excited bout Canada. 
